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so sleep alone tonight
Hello there, all you have to know is that I'm going on sixteen and that I bite. I like school a lot because of my very hyper/funny classmates, tablemates especially. Flipping and being out of gravity's reach momentarily gives me a thrill sometimes. I love being in planes too cause its something I rarely experience. And I've figured that though the Earth may be trembling, all is fine. So, there's enough rambling. I hope you have something to tag about with regards to my posts! |
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 Still trying to figure out that very moment my life got so messed up. I don't understand why I feel guilty not blogging, when there's obviously no one visiting this place. Probably because I'm trying to deceive myself that there are people reading. Hur. Regardless, I think I have a responsibility towards this site. After all, its my blog, meant to record down different stages of my life. So, I think I've been completely moody and different this holiday. Things with family, and school, and myself just start to get clearer once you get the opportunity and time to stop and look around, you know? I'm not gonna say what things are screwing my life and myself up, but they are really, really crucial to me right now. Maybe a passer-by can go, 'hey, I thought this is easy to settle. And by telling others, you can get help.' But whatever, one of the many things I've pretty much decided and figured by myself is that keeping things of yourself from others is still the best way to protect me. School's starting in mid-Jan, which is totally later than usual, so this Christmas didn't feel like one at all. We had a family dinner, thus my facebook status. I've just been staying at home rotting, reading books, trying to get myself to go out and exercise + study for SMTP tryouts in hcjc next year, but failing miserably. Late nights are of course, one of the reasons why I am not waking up early to jog/walk/swim/go to the library to study. Still, this is one of the many holidays where I've been able to do so many things without feeling the numerous emotions that come along with it. At least I went for training, and am planning to continue to train hard for A div next year. Being forced to wake up (sort of) is a refreshing experience after 1 month plus of sleeping till 12pm in the afternoon. //rant over. I suspect that I may sound incoherent, mental and all fed up in the above paragraphs, but that was the raw, unadulterated emotions that I have kept pent up in me for long. Just being able to type what I feel (even now) does not make anything feel easier, but sort of liberated. Maybe just the fake impression I give myself that there is someone whom I can talk to and get solutions from, you know? -inserts weak smile- Merry Christmas everyone.  Melancholy, as usual. Okay though there's nobody tagging and I'm depressed over that matter, I'm trying to not let it get to me. Going on cruise from tomorrow till 11st, which is a Friday, so um, don't miss me? Bye.
 Hellololololooooooo. I got myself a job! ^^V Though its not of fab pay (I was looking through the newspapers today and some had $7-$11/h pay) I guess its a start! Mummy's elated that I'm finally working, lololol. She's convinced that we won't be able to survive in the economic job sector. Anyway, I'm still motivated to do good in life this holiday! My siblings are hooked onto maple and I just played along for a few days, but now its sian sian sian ftw. I wanna make $$ and work hard so that I can play and shop hard and maybe get daddy that car that he wanted in the not-so-distant future! Okay that's rambling but yup I shall make that my aim in life.  Look look! Its like an effing white Lamborghini sports car that we saw when we went Genting after Cameron. Goshhhhhhh, $1m y'know! But whatever, daddy wants, if I can do it, he gets((: Okay I don't know what to crap about so I'm off to upload pics of my Cameron/Genting Highlands trip on fb! Our accomodations this time was totally fab, which was why I loved the 5 days I spent in Msia ^^ Even the long hours spent trying to find Cameron are totally forgiven cause omg 5-star hotel with Star Diamond Hospitality by the American dunno-what Bureau! Luvvvvvvvv to bits hehe. Yup, so check fb and comment :D Bye loves!  I swear my holiday's been like that. Hello, I'm at Cameron Highlands now! Haha, its been fantastic here, daddy got us a 5-star hotel! Its really, really cool, like England tucked away in some part of Asia. But anw, can't chat much. Just popping in to say that I'm going to be MIA till 25th! The internet's crap here and they're still using the old Internet Explorer, but I guess other than that it's been really cool. And cool being figuratively and literally. It's been raining a lot. But that's for when I'm back. Bye loves! 
Childhood.
Hai there, I'm keeping my promise.
First thing I did when I woke up at 1.30pm today, after I managed to tear myself away from the tv show my sister was watching, I started uploading all the photos I was supposed to upload on fb. Yunnan family trip, graduation day, class chalet and graduation night. I realised UK and TW trips from last year aren't up yet, but there's a lot, and I shall do that only if I really have the mood to do so. So, updates of my life since September. Well, I pulled through EOYs, though results (besides math and biology) are dismal. IH and LA was just plain stupid, I hated how I could have gotten much, much higher but didn't because I just freaked under time pressure. Nevertheless. Then HCL intensive was torturous, I swear, but rather productive, in a sense. We still had fun as a class though - after all, we should treasure the last few days we had in nanyang.
The fun came after HCL O's! Png Lin and I went shopping around orchard: Far East Plaza and Wisma before Meng Jie joined us. Then after that we trained to Tamps, and took an half an hour bus ride to Aloha Changi, with Amanda as the landmark so that we could press the bell in time, and we spent 2 hours bringing the fire to life and 2 hours eating. After that Amelia's dad sent us back to bishan and we went home.
Graduation day/night came after that. Prepping was funnn(: Woke up at 11, slacked + painted nails and rushed arnd 2 cause mummy was downstairs waiting for me >< href="mailto:hilton@sg">hilton@sg, and had loads of funnnnn. Check fb for pictures!
On the 12th I rested, went out again in the 13th! Met Minyi, then Amanda and Siang Lin for Haagen Dazs before catching 2012 at cine! It was raining quite heavily, so for like the 1st time in my whole entire life, I got caught in the rain ._. Manda says I'm deprived! BUT, I'm srsly not okay. I'm just blessed to be living in an area where I can bus and walk home under shelter. >( 2012 was fantastic! One thing I learnt was that, Minyi's friends/friends' friends are inaccurate movie critics. I swear, all the movies I wanted to watch and I didn't because she said her friends said it wasn't nice, they all got nominated for something sooner or later. Rawr. So that's basically it! I have no idea how to end this post, so abruptly shall do it. Bye world, next time!
 Hello world. I know I haven't been posting, I'm so sorry! Promise that next week, which is from 16th onwards, I will have zero excuse to not do a post, so be patient till then okay? This week is totally na-da cause there's HCL O's tmr, grad night on wednesday, date with seniors on friday, and shopping with minyi over the weekends. Yup, busy week, me likey!(: Anyway, love y'all! Wish me luck for chinese tomorrow, I really think I can't make it. Haven't been revising, I'm going to hell in JC. :/
 Got to pull myself together. Got to be stronger. Because I have to protect myself; the anguish, disappointment, emotional waves, that family crashes upon me. Indifference, a shield, A state of euphoria where no one close to my heart can ever damage. No more fear. Sweet, sweet release.
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